discourse on eee UPDATED

"Ganito. Naiisip ko kasi na kung gusto mong matuto tungkol sa course mo, magaral ka sa la salle. Kung gusto mo matuto tungkol sa buhay, magaral ka sa up. Baka kasi pag-graduate ko non-engineering ang magiging bread and butter ko. Yan ang pinakafailure sakin. Nagdududa kasi ako sa teaching capabilities ng eee sa up. Iniisip ko kung better off ako kung nag-la salle ako. Pero ung dad mo nga pla may fabrication business... well masaya na ako kung umabot ako sa ganun."

Lack of teachers:
Sabi ni laurice, understaffed sobra sobra ang UP EEE. Dapat, isang subject lang ang tinuturo ng bawat teacher, or at least maayos ang ratio ng teachers to students. Pero hindi eh. at least tatlo ang subjects na tinuturo ng bawat teacher at may mga classes na 200 students is to one teacher. Sa tingin ko kasi, bukod sa konti talaga ang EEE teachers available, hindi attractive ang funding ng EEE sa mga teachers. Hindi nakakaattract ng enough teachers na competent.
Kumbaga, MASYADONG matatalino ang mga teachers kaya marami sa kanila hindi kayang magturo ng complex concepts sa level ng students. Sinasabi ko nga palagi, hindi marunong magturo ang mga matatalino. Not all, but most. Sabi din yan ng math teacher ko dati.
Dito din lalabas ang flaws ng large classes. Kung saan limited ang interaction at parang nanonood lang ng video ng lecture ang mga studyante. Paulit-ulit na lang ang ginagawa ng mga teachers kada lecture. Buti pa videotaped nalang tapos papalabas nila yung video kada lecture. E di nakatipid sila ng laway. Atsaka para may use pa rin yung mga large classrooms. Yung mga interactions kasi sa small discussion classes nagmamanifest yun. At dun natututo ang mga studyante. Dapat puro ganun na lang.

Lack of facilities:
Ngayon naiintindihan ko na ang importance ng equipment LALO NA sa engineering. Sa paghati-hati namin ng equipment, nahahati din ang learning experience namin. Sa aspect na to talong talo na tayo ng ibang private universities. Hindi ko na ieenumerate ang mga kulang na facilities sa eee, pero sige mageexemplify nalang ako:
Sa eee43 (electromechanical energy conversion), ineexpect ba nila na matututunan natin yung principles nang wala man lang pinapakita sa atin na totoong induction, synchronous at DC machine?! Kahit actual picture wala pa akong nakikita. At ineexpect ba nila na maniwala kami sa tinuturo nila eh hindi pa sila nagpapakita ng mga machine na yun in action? Puro theory nalang. Kulang kami ng hands-on experience. Siguro nga top-notchers kami sa board exam pero wala kaming magagawa sa trabaho. Or hindi kami makakaisip ng something revolutionary kasi hindi kami magaling mag-apply sa totoong buhay.
Ika nga ni Jang, swerte na nga ang EEE at napakadiligent at responsible ng mga students nila. Isipin mo walang vandalisms kahit saan sa mga classroom tables. Plus makikita mo talaga na nagaaral ang mga studyante. Tipong sila mismo ang nagrerequest ng make-up classes para maintindihan yung lessons.

Dito sa sasabihin kong to pinakamaraming magagalit, pero eto din ang pinakamabuting magagawa ng EEE.
Sige, wala na tayong magagawa sa funding ng EEE. Pero at least naman bawasan nila yung mga students na tinatanggap nila. Ganun kasimple. Hindi tanggap ng tanggap.

Ang goal ng isang educational institution ay para MATUTO ang mga studyante, hindi para mahirapan sila.

addendum: wala akong sinasabing ispoil kami ng EEE sa facilities. just learn how to maximize resources. no compromise. quality of future engineers 'to.

UPDATE: I know other schools are worse but should we settle for mediocrity? Are we going to let other schools better than us?
sige na, natututo tayo sa UP na magtiis/mag-adjust (sneak preview sa totoong buhay) pero nasasacrifice ang learning experience eh. buti sana kung both pwede maexperience. ang gusto naman natin maging highly proficient sa field na kinukuha natin diba? na maaapply natin ang mga skills na natutunan natin sa career natin. eh stunted yung skill building eh. Hindi pa nga eh.. hindi sya naeestablish at all. puro compromises.

case in point. by this time, sa La Salle (although trimestral sila), marunong na sila mag-solder. anong kagaguhan ang isang third year ECE student na hindi pa tinuturuan magsolder?
Sa pagaaral ng encoders, decoders, multiplexers, by this time nakapag-implement sila ng totoong circuit gamit ang real-world encoders, decoders, multiplexers. GUSTO KONG MATUTO NON!! kelan nila balak ituro sa amin yon? in our own time?

SORRY SA BOARD EXAM KASI HINDI KELANGAN MATUTO NG REAL WORLD IMPLEMENTATION EH. WRITTEN KASE

at kung madali naman baguhin ang sistema, bakit hinde?

discuss opinions in an constructive way

it's easier to say nothing

although not better

I'm sorry

radial and transverse components

Posible kaya na defined ang mood, emotions, physical condition, pati fate, by a cycle?

(heart rate at 84bpm. nakahiga yan ha)

Para bang yung bioryhthm charts na related sa astrology. Alam kong walang solid scientific proof (kahit pa nga possibility) na totoo yon. Pero ganun ang naeexperience ko eh. At times masaya ka lang na kahit alalahanin mo yung mga pagkakamali mo sa buhay, hindi ka lang talaga makasimangot. Minsan naman ganito nalang. Mataas ang heart rate. Hindi ka matanggal sa isip. Natutulala sa jeep. Hindi makausap. Kahit fate. Cyclic. Mabubwenas ka sa ganitong aspeto, tapos nalang pagkatapos ng ilang araw may conspiracy na ang mundo sayo. Para bang yung gulong ng buhay eh perfectly round, walang rolling friction, tubeless, mababa ang mass moment of inertia at constant yung RPM.

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Hindi ko pa rin masabi sayo. Ibig sabihin meron pa rin talaga. Sa lahat talaga ng tao sayo ako pinaka-nahihirapan kumausap. Napapansin mo naman siguro yung mga pagkakataon na wala talaga akong nasasabi. Yon normal yon. Yung mga panahon na nakakausap mo ako, malamang hindi ako yon. Wala ako sa sarili ko nun. paki-kulit nalang ako at paki-initiate ang conversation. May gusto kasi akong sabihin. Marami dapat akong sasabihin. Wag mo akong titigilan hanggat hindi ko nasasabi sayo.

Tamo. Ang dami ko pa dapat gagawin ngayon. May dalawang problem set pa. Pero nanghihinayang pa rin ako na pinalampas ko lang kanina yung pagkakataon ko na masabi ko na sayo yung dapat kong sabihin.

that's ok life is sweet

likufanele

all that's left

epic #3: tabi tabi po

i decided to take a little detour on the way home from Santa Rosa. the nine other riders i was with opted to use the highway. i desperately wanted trails, and remembering that my father told me to avoid highways, i suddenly turned right at the Cavite Light Industrial Park to enter the Davilan trail. i didn't even inform the other riders that i'll take a detour, to avoid confrontation. i just told the one beside me that i'll take the trail because i don't want to use the highway


so it was just me and the mountain. it was the best experience ever

then i realized why the other riders were avoiding the trails when it rains. the trails were extra muddy. there were puddles of mud a foot high and the slippery ruts were impossible. this picture was taken when i was swept down my the mud


and then i was lost. i kept telling myself before that this would be a nice experience. but after i realized that i was back were i started, after it started raining (again), after i became hungry because it's almost noon, after the thought that someone could be hunting and mistake me for game, AND AFTER I REMEMBERED THAT THERE WAS NO ONE WITH ME, i began to feel a little doubtful if i really should've done this.

i retraced my trail then met someone carrying something. i asked him, "manong, san po ba ang Davilan?" "ah kumaliwa ka dyan Davilan na yun". it gave me a breath of relief and continued with the trail. i reached the intersection. it looked familiar to me. manong told me to go left to get to Davilan, but i recall very well that i should go straight to get home. this is when i learned that Davilan is actually the place on the other side of the mountain, and not the way back home. a little doubtful, i didn't take a left turn. i recognized the place and was rather convinced that i was back on track. rain was all over me. it kept going in my mouth


further in the trail, i recognized a figure in the distance. it looks like a bike. could it be a fellow mountain biker? it looked so. i was trying to make out who the mountain biker was. i thought the nine other riders who were with me climbed up davilan to rescue me or something. but as i came closer i realized that i don't know him
could it be that there was another mountain biker foolish enough like me to try the Davilan trail? the thought brought me joy. what brought me even more joy was the fact that he was calling up some other mountain bikers out back. it so happens that there were (4) other mountain bikers who tried out Davilan!


i bade goodbye and was on the way back. i reflected on what i have just done. it was stupid. the 9 other riders would've hated me. i could've gotten sick, caught an exotic pathogenic virus in the mountain. i could've gotten a flat tire. i could've died when the trail suddenly eroded. but heck i got these pictures




i was quite impressed by my panaracer tires really. down to this really muddy and technical section

and just like a good movie, the ending was a clincher. the ending was foreshadowed by the sound of a gushing river i heard while i was lost. there used to be dried-up river on the trail head entrance. but of course, since it rained hard, the river wasn't as dry as it used to be. it wasn't even wet. it was flooded. there were some people by the river when i got there. they are residents of the mountain and i guess they have some business down the here. some of them had bikes with them. they had to cross the river too. i watched them do so. the river was knee high. i propped up my bike against my shoulder and treaded the knee-deep gushing river, careful not to get swept by the current.

immediately after the river is a steep climb. up in front of me was this old lady, pushing her bike up just like me, but she was carrying her slippers and a live chicken. i commented "ate ang lakas nyo pa ah" "61 years old na ako"

wishless thinking

Nang tumapak ako sa UP, 3.50 pesos ang pamasahe sa ikot. In a span of 3 years, 6.50 na ang pamasahe. Piso kada taon ang taas ng pamasahe. Biruin nyo yon. By the end of the world, 12.50 pesos na ang pamasahe, assuming linear increase ng fare ha. Most likely exponential ang increase nyan, so expect mga 15 pesos or more. Kaya nga naglalakad nalang ako ngayon. Tsk, pupunta ka lang from EEE to shopping center 15 pesos na

stranded, clipless and flooded

tagaytay - july 23 2006

i hate the road and the internal combustion engine

but this will do











the thing that appeals to me the most about mountain biking is the places i get to visit. this time, 38 kilometers worth of uphill from san pedro to tagaytay. 32 kilometers to get back. but really. i hate the road

Advancements in communication doesn't bring people closer. It enables people to be far apart

And here I am taking ECE

happy birthday pj

11:43 na. Malapit na matapos ang birthday ko. Gusto ko na matulog. kahit na ayoko na tumanda, etong taon na ito ang pinakamaayos na birthday ko since 3 years. this time, naramdaman ko talaga na special ang araw na to. Sinisira nga siguro ng eee ang kaligayahan ng birthday ko, pero eto na yung best birthday ko since college.

Inaantok na ako. May nagtext. Makakatulog na kaya ako. Sana, nakalimutan lang talaga nya. Sana, umabot sya ng 11:59. Kahit siguro lampas ng hating gabi, basta bago mag-ala-una kasi automatic na mamatay ang telepono ko.
sana, busy lang talaga sya sa pagaaral. Sana, busy lang talaga sya sa pagaaral. Parang palagi. Sana, yun talaga ang dahilan. Tao din naman ako eh.
(pauses to check message)
11:53. 6 minutes. Kaya kong maghintay ng anim na minuto para sayo. Kaya kong maghintay ng isang taon para sayo. Kung itutuloy mo, kaya ko pang maghintay ng apat na taon pa. Sana lang malaman mo na may naghihintay. maghihintay ako. Di ko lang talaga masabi. Naghihintay pa rin kasi ako eh.
11:58
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11:59
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At natapos ang birthday ko. Sana tumigil nalang ang oras. At least alam ko na eventually, makakatulog din ako
Happy birthday PJ

Ps: if i made at least a little mark, if i were at least a little special. I tried to the most

I love answers. But I can't have that all the time. So checks are the next best thing

Some words are yet to be written. Some yet to be heard

nah not this time

minsan lang din ako kumuha ng picture ng sarili ko

there's something missing in the picture

epic #2: another take against the wall

there are several important particularities that was during my first time up at Maarat, San Mateo, Rizal
1) it was my first time to use my Stumpy on a real trail

2) i was using the stock Specialized Resolution 2.0 tires (which looked and felt like 2.4s) on Mavic 317 rims
3) i was using LX hydraulic disc brakes and drivetrain (front and rear derailleur) BUT my wheelset has specialized/deore hubs and Avid disc rotors (not center-lock)
4) before the ride, i had problems with the rotor hitting the brake pads unintentionally. a quick fix and i solved the problem
5) the climb up the wall was hard. too hard. yes, it was my first time to ride after a very long time so i might just be out of shape, but it really feels like the bike was too slow. i thought it was the rear suspension sapping pedalling efficiency, but i was fully locked out. climbing was exceptionally hard for me that day. i couldn't climb hills i could normally clean before. i didn't rule out the possibility that i was just really out of shape, but i also want to blame my tires.
i'd also blame my brakes. there was a point in a climb where it just felt that pedalling was "makunat". i think it's because my disc brakes became malaligned and were hitting the pads. i guess my quick fix didn't last long
6) we were resting somewhere when we realized that it was getting dark. dark clouds loomed over our heads. we were sure it will rain. under the shade of a tree we planned to wait out the rain. we waited for a long time until we decided to just ride out and away from the rain. shortly after we went on, rain began to pour hard. for some reason, we all felt that the rain gave us strength and comfort to continue. perhaps because it was a hot day and the rain cooled us off. perhaps because the trail was generally going downhill when the rain poured. whatever it was, we were glad the rain drenched us.

i keep saying that sometimes, rain just wets us on purpose. no other reason why the weather decided to rain, "umulan para lang mabasa tayo". after less than ten minutes, the rain stopped and we were riding dry fire roads. and the sun was out heating us up again.
7) the reward of climbing is the fast downhill part. we passed through a winding fire road with really loose gravel. really loose. it was a good thing that our trail guides warned us in advance to slow down.
8) we ate adobo, corned beef, eggs and bulalo on banana leaves in a small canteen near the foot of the wall

yesterday we decided to take on the wall once again, to redeem ourselves
1) i've been using the Stumpy every week (as long as there's a ride). it has tasted Santa Rosa, Davilan and Langgam trails

2) i was still using the Spez Resolutions, but it's now on the X223 wheelset
3) the X223 wheelset has LX hubs, rotors and cogs
4) since i'm on all LX parts, my wheels are definitely compatible with my drivetrain now. no braking problems here
5) perhaps i was just more conditioned now, but i was able to ride the wall better than before
6) we tried the singletrack that we were not able to try last time and it was wicked. to date, this has been the steepest i've been going downhill, plus the fact that it was a singletrack. downhill rush! i turned off the fork lock-out and switched the Triad rear shock from Propedal(tm) to open. i shifted my weight back, kept some fingers on the brake levers... when i felt like im losing balance, i just let go of the brakes and i regain balance. gyroscopic inertia does its thing. after i popped out of the dense vegetation singletrack and landed on the road, i couldn't wipe the smirk off my face. i gotta do that again. two things: somehow i began to crave for dual-crown forks; i have to cut my seat tube so i can lower my seat
we entered another singletrack on the way home. i hit this big ditch and for some reason i couldn't get over it, so i had to be contented to hike my bike up. the others were just near ahead waiting. after we were all rallied on our small stop we went ahead, but upon pedalling, i noticed that my bike feels funny. i looked back on my rear tire and saw that i suffered a flat. "bobby parcs" was suffering from a leaky interior before so he borrowed my interior. sir edu lent his to me. after a quick repair, we were off again

7) riding fast feels so good, especially if you're not exerting effort. the wind zips past your knees, elbows and shorts. when turning, you experience g-forces and lean at angles unimaginable at low speeds. i decided to overtake sir joseph on this turn because i'm overconfident while turning - i've mastered the art of shifting weight and leaning the bike. after i passed him there was another left turn. i put my wieght on the right pedal, turn my handlebar (not lean the bike) to the left. the turn was too fast so i pushed on both brake levers. my tires were skidding a lot even though i was correctly feathering the brakes. i finally skidded too much that i fell on my left side. my eyes were open the whole time as i saw my bike beneath me then on top of me. i felt my helmet bang the ground. i stopped moving and i was down. sir joseph came to help me. he alerted the incoming riders about the accident. in order, these are the things, in chronological order, that came to my mind when i realized that i crashed:
masakit ba? ah hindi pala. ayos makakapagbike pa ako
then i lifted the bike off me
oh no nasugatan ba yung bike ko?
i fell on the left side. the drivetrain is on the right side. that's good. my dual-control lever on the left is scratched badly.
dirt was all over. on my bike. on my bag. on my body
ano ba masakit sakin... nasan sugat ko. haha ayos lang hindi masakit
sir joseph kept telling me that i was going too fast. he would've warned me that i was, but he didn't "kasi kanya-kanyang diskarte naman yan...". that's ok, i thought. it was an experience i'd gladly want to have. tito gary and mang fred came. several riders passed and asked if i was ok. sir fred brought out the agua, some cotton and betadine. sir edu came and helped drench hydrigen peroxide all over my left knee and shoulder. as the solution came into contact with blood, it fizzed up. some goo collected on my shoe. another slothering of betadine and i was ok. i wasn't in pain. bleeding yes. in pain no. tito gary said that i will feel the pain later, probably at night. i didn't know if he was joking. i then realized that we were in the fire road with the really loose gravel.

8) as soon as we were back to mang fred's rest house, rain poured hard. this time, it was as if weather waited for us to get back under a roof. maarat weather was probably guilty for drenching us the first time.
adobo will not be lost. but this time we also brought bopis and menudo and ordered servings of bicol express and pakbet on the side. we had plates (and bowls and rice-cooker covers) but we didn't have spoons. our hands were dirty. and there was no water. we washed our hands with soap and rain water. THEN someone came inside with utensils. great

things i learned because of the crash
1) stay in control when unfamiliar with the trail. this is going to be hard for me when i'm enjoying downhills
2) when turning in loose terrain, do not lean, steer. this i did, and will do now with conviction
3) do not use the front brakes when turning!!! this is very important!! yes, when going down, the front brake offers more braking power. but when turning, braking the front wheel will cause it to lose traction. front wheel traction is responsible for steering!
4) do not tighten the screw that clamps your levers. it should be a little loose so that in the event of a crash, if the levers hit the ground, they will just swing back instead of taking on the impact of the crash
5) wear a helmet. and knee and elbow protections if possible

i just hope that i didn't become apprehensive because of the accident.
mantra: the accident happened because the ground was loose... you can still bomb down if you the terrain is good...

keyboard test

The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog
Ulit nga
The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog
Thumb typing
Mukhang medyo nasasanay na ako ah
Two-thumb typing
don't even think about touch-typing
Yehe pretty accurate
The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog
Hmm
I wonder if there is a shorter phrase that uses all the letters in the alphabet
Just like this phrase that i've been typing a lot
The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog
I wonder if clipping my nails helped improve my thumb-typing skills
Or the fact that i'm looking at the keyboard while typing
Or because i'm lying on my back
The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog
I wonder how many words per minute i'm getting
This is pretty fast
Much more, it's about the same speed as my brain
So i can type my thoughts fluidly
Unlike SIP keyboards
Even if it's FITALY
mmm fitaly
For some reason my right-thumb is pretty accurate
I'm beginning to get convinced that clipping my long nails improved the accuracy of my thumb
Especially the right thumb
Yeah
I used to have the problem of hitting two keys at once
I thought i just have big thumbs
Wait i have a message
Yeah texting with this keyboard...

Now check screen alignment. It works now
Hope it lasts

false hopes

Manonood kami ng sine bukas
May fete de la musique sa saturday
Magbubukas ng eee 42 section
Makakabili ako ng ES12 book
Dadating ang ES12 book within this week
Makakapagaral ako ng ES12 ngayong gabi
Isusubsidize ng DOST ang lahat ng babayaran ko sa tuition fee
Pareho ang window kung saan magbabayad ng tuition fee at bente pesos na reg-copy ng form5
Makakapagsubmit na ako ng form5 para sa DOST stipends ko for last sem
Matatapat si marco sa window 8
Pupunta ako sa circuit GA sa thursday
Mapapahiram ko ng philo book ang pinsan ko
Sa friday ang blueberry cheesecake ko
Dadating ang Smart para maginstall ng internet within 2-3 days

16 or 17 years old nalang dapat ako habambuhay

binaural beat brain wave

I know much about the internal combustion engine enough to hate them but need them